21 May 2010
I had my 16 week appointment with the midwife this morning and we heard the baby’s heartbeat!! :o)
It was great, I’ve recorded it on my phone to let family and friends hear it too, only if they want to that is, don’t want to be one of those pushy mothers already!!! :o)
The midwife also measured my bump and it measured 15cm which she says is the equivalent to 15 weeks. She said not to panic as they allow for 3cm’s of a difference either way…phew!
I was really excited about this appointment because I knew I’d get to hear the heartbeat but last night I started to dread it. I didn’t bounce out of bed this morning as you might expect. I was dreading it in case the midwife told me there was no heartbeat, even though my sister told me beforehand that they do say even though they can’t hear the heartbeat doesn’t mean it’s not there.
Will the worry ever end?? My Mum says no, I’m 35 this year and she still worries about me! But it’s what I signed up for and maybe just need to try and relax a bit more. My other fear is that I’m going to have a disabled child and feel like I’m preparing myself so I won’t be shocked at the birth. I wonder if all pregnant woman fear this? My fear of this started many years ago even when I wasn’t even thinking about motherhood.
I could have had a blood test taken today for Downs Syndrome and Spina Bifida but I declined it. If the results came back positive I just couldn’t see myself having an abortion, so figured what’s the point of knowing. Maybe to be prepared I suppose but even if the results came back negative I’d question them and think it was a false negative…I really do think too much for my own good!!!
On the way in to work from the midwife this morning I saw one magpie and had just said “good morning mr magpie” and had my usual, “of course only the one as usual” thought when I saw another and then another. All 3 were lined up at the side of the road and appeared one at a time as I drove along… it’s a sign!! It’s going to be a girl!! :o)